Columbine are really pretty. But they hide themselves by looking downwards. Shy flowers.
Against my resolution years ago to never buy into the lottery, i heard from my father that powerball was up big so i said what the heck i’ll buy one ticket. i went with my father to a little convenience store on the way home from a wake. After i bought the ticket the guy at the counter said to me “Good luck.” i heard him say that to my father who purchased five tickets before me, so he’s probably saying it to everyone, but with the way i’ve been feeling this past year, those little well-meaning words that people say to me. i actually felt slightly less negative for a moment. Like the other day when i had a real laugh over a joke someone tosses into a conversation. i can actually count on one hand how many times a week that i laugh. It shouldn’t be like this.
i think Angelina Jolie’s a sexy woman too but you don’t see me crying about her surgery as if her breasts were the only thing attractive about her.
Actors from my favorite BBC shows are showing up on all these American shows. i don’t know how to feel about this anymore.
Tagging all Star Trek spoilers as “star trek spoilers”
Not that i’m gonna see it earlier than next week but i’m just getting prepared. Cause it’s a thing to get prepared about.
Watched the 2nd episode of Hannibal. Yeah this show is real good but shit i don’t think i’m going to dream well tonight.
i fuckin’ hate searching for jobs.

The herring’s run.
This sounds like an odd thing to say but their struggle up the river is a remarkable and truly beautiful thing. i caught two with my bare hands! The first time to see if i could do it and the second to show a kid how to. They’re a pretty fish when you get a good look at them. Not a colorful tropical fish you see on National Geographic, but a nice New England fish that’s got this simple beauty to it that alot of New England things have. i love my people and i love my homeland.
i just hope that i don’t get stuck saying “what am i even doing here
?”
i’ve watched maybe five british television shows from start to finish and it’s like now i feel like i know all the BBC actors that exist. Maybe i just expected the UK to have a never ending supply of actors cause this is just weird knowing every single new game of thrones actor from a previous series on the BBC.
For the first time ever i have killed an animal to feed myself.
What if i built a hobbit hole on the cape.
My dad wants to me to look things up for him and it’s getting annoying because mom and i have offered to get him an iPad but he said that he doesn’t want one. i mean c’mon he’s not retarded, he has a brain and a fuckton of time on his hands since he retired. He keeps talking about how cool they are i wish he would learn how to use a goddamn computer already.