i would apologize for all the Morgwen lately and the posts to come but i’m not sorry.
Bad ass is a term that people usually use positively, but i don’t i like using that for Daenerys Targaryen because honestly had she been a man i know that i wouldn’t like him. A better word is terrifying, a quality most female villains fail to make me feel. i love Daenerys Targaryen because a female leader was written so well and because she is judged the same as everyone else fighting for that thrown.
My dad tells me that he wants me to have my own opinion but then he’s surprised when it’s different than his. We then proceed to have what he refers to as “a discussion” and what i call it is a low-volume argument. He says it’s good character building but when i have an opinion i don’t always feel the need to justify it. The following topic is something that i usually shrug my shoulders and avoid but just because i’m living in his house doesn’t mean i should fear having my own opinion. It’s just that when my opinion is different than his i want to avoid those arguments at all costs because i don’t think it’s healthy for our relationship but he thinks it’s completely healthy.
Fuck this if i feel a certain way about it a certain thing then it’s okay to feel that way and i don’t have to justify a damn thing to him if i don’t want to.
It has gotten to that time, where every single tumblr post i read is way too funny. G’night lads.
i told my dad that one and three Native women are raped and after some thought he had the nerve to say alcohol is a contributing factor. And then we went into a discussion about how to pay attention to your drink at parties, etc. i got lectured like i usually do in a conversation with my father.
But, then i got to thinking.
While a woman being drunk doesn’t help anything, and we should definitely educate women on safe partying, what we really need to focus on is TEACHING MEN THAT RAPE IN ANY SITUATION, SHAPE AND FORM IS SOMETHING THAT THEY SHOULD NEVER DO. And that it’s not funny but horrendous. There are plenty of sessions that teach women about safety tricks, why aren’t there conversations with men about why rape is wrong?
Valuable things i learned this weekend: how to fold a plastic bag.
It’s alot smaller than i thought and more crowded, but still nicely put together.
It looks like i’m a diva cause i have a large suitcase for a four day trip but half of it is food okay. Packing is hard i don’t want to look like a diva but i got health problems yo don’t judge me.
It’s a big enough obstacle to make sure i eat enough and at the right times for my constant energy fluctuations never mind all these dietary restrictions. Plus these symptoms suck. i’m dealing with Celiac Disease, Lactose Intolerance and now Fructose Malabsorption?? Please end already.
Completely reading Life of Pi was like drinking water after being thirsty for a long time.
do you ever just want some people to stop talking?
In an attempt to get my life organized and running the way i want it to i have come with a set of rules and regulations for myself.
1. i want to read more. i bought alot of books when i worked at a bookstore and to be honest i’ve probably only read half of them.
2. i would like to continue to play violin, but i can’t do that if i don’t schedule in time to play.
3. i want to get better at my people’s language. Just because i’m in an immersion class doesn’t mean that i still don’t need outside study time. In fact it is very evident that i need it.
4. i need proper time to prepare meals and get ready for the next day.
5. i like listening to the radio.
6. Damnit i really need to stay on top of my financial spending. Like everything else can be loose but this has to be strict.
7. i need to laugh more, and hang out with friends. Even if it’s just a few hours a week.
With these things in mind i have constructed a very basic daily as well as a weekly schedule. Along with that i have a log to keep track of certain activities. It’s not as over the top as it seems. i try to keep it simple because if it’s too complicated i won’t bother to keep up with it. Every now and then i let my brain get cluttered and it’s just a good idea to reboot the system.
i talked about it with my father as we went for a walk to the convenience store. He said that if i had wanted to watch a film with gay love in it he would’ve been okay with watching it.
i guess i was just more frustrated that it wasn’t the immediate and normal thing to do? Like on Netflix i should’ve have to find cute gay love movies in a separate section from the regular romance.
After a day of shoveling snow my father sat down and stated that he wanted to watch a sappy love story. This isn’t unusual for him as he really appreciates love stories. i immediately went to think of typical romances that my parents and i enjoy, but then i realized that they were all straight romances. And then i wondered, would my parents have the same desire to watch a sappy love story if the couple in the movie were two girls? i’m out to my parents and they’re very supportive of me but i think this is one example of what we deem “normal” in our society because my first instinct and my parents first instinct was certainly not inclusive of gay people.